Let there be light and lots of it.

November 16, 2011 at 3:12 pm (Uncategorized)

Seasonal depression has always been a bane of mine. I didn’t know why I burst out crying when Mrs. Mugg told me I couldn’t go outside for recesses in the 4th grade, but I did. Not all at once mind you. I don’t remember what my infraction was, but the sentence to the indoors was handed down, and then we went to lunch. I sat alone, away from everyone else (not too uncommon) faced the window and staaaared at the sunlight. Wasn’t too long before the waterworks began.

Yep, I’ve had this for as long as I remember. You’d think then, that I’d have tried the light box long before now.

I hate light in the morning. I mean, I really hate unnatural, ugly, flat light. I don’t notice it at night because you’re eased into it by the setting of the sun, but in the morning, you wake up to glorious, beautiful, soft darkness. I can see fine, I can remember where everything is in physical space, so I just don’t turn on lights.

Exept I could barely get out of bed on Saturday, and Sunday I was inches from a fight with my husband all day. Monday started out with a random crying fit in the grocerey and a terrible day of work full of my inability to focus and lots of repetative, detail oriented tasks.

That night i got the light box. Sadly, I can’t mock it by calling it the happy light because that is the model name.

The next day was drastically different. I still wasn’t perfect, but Hell, I’ll take not about to burst into tears and able to focus.

I’m just sorry it took me this long to do it.

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