Work as a distraction

December 28, 2011 at 6:06 pm (About my process) (, , , , , , , )

I need to get blogging again, I think it keeps me honest.

I’ve been working in the studio, but work-that-pays is stressing me out. I feel they have unreasonable expectations of just how much I can do in a day, but then what if they don’t and I’m just not very good at office work. I take the time to do a good job, and to be honest when I see the person who was before me’s work (who did everything they wanted to have done) it was slipshod and poorly done. So I do think they have unreasonable expectations. ON the other hand, I’m having to fight that awful voice inside me that tells me that I’m worthless and I’m always always always going to fail.

I hate that voice. That voice is a piece of shit, but I can’t get it to shut up and go the hell away. Of course I’m going to fail at times, but I also succeed. So why in hell can’t I remember my successes, only and always my failures?

So I feel stressed out at work, and its the time around winter solstice which means I get to struggle with SADs. So working in the studio has been hard. I just want to hibernate, really. Sleep, read, occasionally eat. Write a little.

Still I must persevere. Today I’m going to go to the studio and glaze my work for the show that’s going up next week. (EEP!) I don’t think its going to turn out how I wanted it to, but I hope it will turn out well.


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Show Prep

December 1, 2011 at 3:02 pm (About my process) (, , , , , , )

I have a show coming up. I’m pretty darn nervous about it, I don’t feel like I’m going to be ready. The things I wanted to do… I don’t know that I can get them done. I kept putting off making sculptures because I was focused on more immediate and financial concerns. I thought I’d still be jobless at this point and have plenty of time to focus on my sculptures.

Ha. What an idiot.

Now I spend every night watching tv and texturing little forms. Not that I’m complaining about being able to do work at home, but this is not exactly how I planned on doing things. I’m also afraid that its not going to look good when its done. ergh.

and I need to make so many more slugs its not even funny. Every time I think I’ve learned my lesson…

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And Crunch time is over

August 6, 2011 at 1:48 am (About my process) (, , , , )

Thankfully. I think I can take the stress of about two weeks of crunch time, which is good to know. Well, crunch time plus a bored husband. If he had more to occupy him, I’d probably be ok for 3 weeks, since I wouldn’t have to be so active in the evenings after work.

Still, thats good to know for future reference. That means that I can probably crunch my way through a single load, probably medium kiln, of work. So long as the work is simple, like this bottle. Or maybe if I did a about 5 large sculptures, or a handful of tiny smooth ones (like this one)

Knowing one’s boundries when working allows one (me) to avoid promising too much, or taking on to much. Alternativly, it keeps me honest too, knowing how far I can go keeps me from being too lazy. I was raised with a lot of anti-boundary propaganda, but I’m finding that boundaries are actually darn useful tools.

Anyhow, I should be back to regular posting next week, now that I’m not so rushed. 🙂

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Colaborative crunch time

July 29, 2011 at 3:57 pm (Studio and Environment) (, , , , , , , , )

Its different having to do a crunch time for someone else. I find myself both more focused on the goal and also less stressed out about it. I suppose knowing that I’m being paid for the work I’m doing has something to do with it, where as when you’re doing a lot of work on your own payment is far from certain. Also, its a much shorter crunch time, and I’m not making all the decisions.

Its kinda’ nice. Relaxed, even if I’m working my finger tips off.

I find working with someone else to be very inspiring. I have some ideas to play with, when I get the time in August. I’m also being sold on commercial underglazes. The ones I have cooked up for the most part are much more finicky and difficult to use than the commercial underglazes Cori is using. The exception being the nice bright red I have, which was also cheeper when I made it myself.

So back to work for me. I have to sponge pots and glaze today. Yeay!

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Post 4th of July Post

July 5, 2011 at 4:42 pm (About my process, Studio and Environment, Uncategorized) (, , , , , )

Hey everybody. Hope everyone had a happy 4th of July. Even those of you not in the USA, where it would have just been a happy day and not a holiday. (Just because its not your holiday doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t have a happy day. 😉 )

I’m struggling in my mind between what I want to do and what I have to do. I want to work on sculptures, but I have to do production. Hell, I have a show coming up and I’ll need to work on sculptures sooner rather than later… but getting paid is good too, and the person only has a limited time in the city.

So its more cups for me, but I have ideas, and I want to try those ideas.

Today is a Chester day in the studio, which means I have a cuddly puppy on my lap. The dogs handled the fireworks well. In Oregon fireworks are legal to sell and set off around the 4th. So of course my nighbors try to burn down the city every year. I’m not very comfortable with it, having grown up in a fireworksless state. Well, that and watching sparks hit a house and a charge going into a tellephone pole just does not inspire great trust in my neighbors ability to handle explosives. -_-‘

Of course, all the smart people went to the big, open field park to set off their fireworks. … there were about 4 of them. Gah.

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Got to work on expectations

May 19, 2011 at 4:02 pm (About my process) (, , , )

Well, after last months insanity (literally) Justin has convinced me to spend less time in the studio for a while. So instead of being there from 8:30 to 5 PM I’m there from 9:00 to 1:00. Its a lot less time to work with, and I’ve not quite figured out what I can do in that time period yet. That and glazing ALWAYS takes longer than you were expecting. Always. Blergh.

Anyhow, today is the day I spend a lot more time in the studio due to having a shift of open studio (I hold the studio open so that students and by the hour people can come and work) and class. I should get a lot more done today, I hope, but we’ll see.

After all, I do have that damn cold Justin just gave to me. ergle.

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Back in the studio again.

May 13, 2011 at 5:23 pm (About my process, inspiration) (, , , , , , )

So now I’m doing more work for Cori. She wants a lot done, which is pretty awesome. Knowing that she did well with the shop makes me very happy for her.

I’m getting some work done still on my own art as well, but I’m totally using my class as an opportunity there. This week we did tripods and I made this cool doublewalled tripod that is going to have teeth and some sort of lacey detail on the outer wall. Gnom gnom gnom.

I really need to work out how to make my tripod legs even. *sighs* but to be honest, I’m really happy this time with the uneaven legs. I think even would have been booring.

Still, I’ve promised my husband that I would spend less time in the studio, so I’d better get my ass in gear. Ciao bellas!

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After 7 hours of sleep

April 21, 2011 at 6:07 pm (About my process) (, , , , , , , , , , , , )

I feel a little less tired than I have the previous days. I’m off to a late start this morning because I had to work on business cards. Fortunately, that is taken care of. 🙂

I brought my camera today to get pictures of the pieces I’m bisquing, incase they don’t survive. Large tiles like to warp and when you see my big sculpture, you’ll konw why I worry about that.

Anyhow, today is a bisq and then back to decorating. 🙂 I’m almost done with the functional work and then I’ll be able to do the drawing on the vases. I’m really looking forward to that!

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Last week of clay prep.

April 18, 2011 at 4:22 pm (About my process) (, , , , , , , , , , , )

I have a glaze firing on WEdnesday, a bisq on Thursday, and another glaze on Monday. ANd then thats it. o_O Which means I don’t have a lot of time to write right now, but alas I’m going to anyhow. I’ll just keep it quick.

I’ve got my uber jar that I made during class. I want to take it to the show, but we’ll see if I get it done in time. It is an awesome jar though, if I say so myself. (and I do!) However, I have a ton of bowls to decorate. I got some done over the weekend, and I got most of my drawings done over the weekend. Yeay me!

I’m trying to decide how I’m going to do the plates, and “simple” is the word that comes to mind. I also have a bunch of jars to do. Hoy…. so much to doooo.

Now its time to go do it.

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Just when you think you’re done…

April 14, 2011 at 4:38 pm (About my process, Studio and Environment) (, , , , , , , , )

You find yourself working every day with wet clay. Argh. I feel like I’m trapped in an eternal loop of wet work. I’m not throwing anymore but then I had to put the jars together, and trim, and now I need new slabs to draw on because most of the other ones warped and broke because I dried them improperly. Yeay me.

But really, after today, that’s it. Hell, after 12 PM that’s it. No more. If it doesn’t get done by then, IT DOESN”T GET DONE. This afternoon will be dedicated to bowls. Lots and lots and lots of bowls. So many bowls.

Oh, and finding a pretty dress for the show. Tee fucking hee. :p

In other news, I’ll be sharing my booth with a friend. Thats good news for me on terms of costs and having to fill the space. Also having an extra pair of hands to help design and set up the booth. Yeay!

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